whassup!Gonna be a qiuck post..When for check-up suppose to go in the morning aku punye belo ingat cn go any time me n mum go in the afternoon..call the HR to comfrim and of we go..we arrive ard 13:45 so we decided to register first so l8tr tk payah tunngu lame lah kn..aftr register we when for a dring outside for a while coz only at 14:00 the clinic will start to operate baq..When they are open back i waited for my turn..Need to do a urine test, colour test, height and weight, my BP and temp, blood taking and a x-ray, and need to be immunise if haven!theres alot to do and guess wat?!nk jumpe docter je kene tunggu for 2 hrs!!wadduh..super long lah i tell u..haha..so while waiting i take2 gambar..haha..and mummy have to layan kn me..huhu!ard 16:00 i go in to the consultation room..check here check there check everywhere docter ask me to go for the x-ray and the blood taking..its not in the clinic itself eh mind u!we have to like go to another blok to do that stuff and all..haha..jln pun cpt2 lah takot tutop (:
&& ino need to be immunise!hehe..Fter everythimg me and mummy proceed to TAKA meet daddy and my two brothers..we have dinner together outside..They made my day make me laugh and all..thanx guys!♥ Had dinner at seoul garden..skejap je aku da kenyang..spoilt tol lah ni perot!haha..i was so full but the rest still continue eating..i sit down there onli..yela da kenyang..But i still want to eat the ice cream!haha..daddy take for me..all chocolate!!hahai dun want ani other flavor..haha..cewewet yana! (:
after eating we went to this big electronic store BEST something2..haha..bought a new digital camera! ((:
Then home sweet home.....

Big brother♥
Small brother♥
daddy♥
Mommy♥
haha!while waitiing for the princes and the king to arrive..told mommy to do a stupid face!!and she gave me THIS!!haha!love u mommy..trime kasih kerane melayankn kakak nye kerenah..haha..love them to bits and pieces!!

Never ever ever make someone ur everything..when ur in love eveything seems perfect..die buat slh pun ktr dgn senang maafkn die..ktr bute kerane cinta..Ive make a big mistake loving him so much..now that his gone im left all alone..its just so hard to let go wat we once had..from strangers we became friends after knowing each other we fall for each other and we bacame partners/lovers..and when things turn sour we broke up and once more we became friends..a friend where we slowly drifted apart and became stranger all over again..i cant go one like this..im still trap here..feeling all lost and helpless..nobody knows how i feel inside except me..nobody understands me except for myself..i dun what his been up to lately..he just kept silent now..been two days since he mcq me..many says he have move on..semudah itu..semudah itu.. );

Are you happy with ur life now?
Who am i to u now?
No texts from u..why?
You have found someone?true?
Some answers pls!!So i can move on with my life!! ):

How to delete him from my heart?how i wish its like a computer easy saved and easy to be deleted..history pun senang utk dilupe kn..delete je and everything cn start afresh..but this is reality i have to face..i have to make a decision..im a weak person..very weak when it comes to dis..
Everytime the first thing when i on my FB..i'll go to his profile..idk why..automatic..he seems happy with his life now..what cn i say..haiz..
i've given it a tot..

I see assume u are happy with ur life rite now..
Im no longer exsist in ure life..as im a nobody to u..
The reasons of y ure not texting mie..i assume ure busy and god noes whats ure other reason is..

No moood already! );

I feel so weird..i feel empty..Each day past by i keep wondering will he still be there for me??Will he still be there when i need him??Lending me his shoulder to cry and his listening ears??Hoping everything will be like old days..Moving on easy said than done..ktr yg suffering sendiri dekat sini dorg tahu ape..waking up with no morning mcqes, no goodnite mcq before going to bed..i have to put on a fake smile every single day..die jarang mcq aku skrang..sibok dgn keje agaknye tuh..bnyk appointment..atau da tknk mcq aku lagi?aku tk tahu la..i nvr regret having him in my life..i hope he too didnt regrett having me in his life ♥

Tomorrow theres gonna be a girls outing..i hope everything will go well as plan..(:

Im effing tired!!gosh..kei2 no updates due to my busy shedule..like almost everyday im working go back home tired already to update..ive requested two day off this week 24/03 and 25/03..Atfr work rest awhile sleep a nice one..hehe..and now in front of lappy :DD But still feeling lethargic..

Work was fun for the pass few weeks..Workmates is such a sweetheart! (: Guiding me thru teaching me what i need to learn and all..thanx guys!!:DD I noe sometimes people tk bleh tahan dgn blurrness aku nih..sampai kene tegur "alamak!blurr ah dekni!" Haha..tk bleh slh kn die sebab memang aku nih mcm gitu..haiz..susah susah..Da dapat adapt with my workplace..manager2 die sume baik2..best2..overall we are like one big family.. ((: Thanx eka! :DD

When out for the pass few days on my off day la..hee..Was out wit love, ms frabo last week..had a superb day with her..It really made my day ((: Of course pics was taken and its all in FB..Go chect it out if u want..And on Sunday followed Garfield ((: to his work function..Well it was a nice event..but part yg tk nice kn duduk for 6 or was it 7 hrs??haha..didnt count uh..but long uh..alot of prize giving session..CONGRATS TO ALL! (:
Ure parents are sure proud of eu guys...KEEP IT UP!!
You will one day be like them, im sure ((: STRIVE FOR IT GARFILED!YOU CAN DO IT!BELIVE DAT U CAN DO IT!! ((:
Ingat tk?
D-Doa
U-Usaha
I-?? (NI I LUPE!!) O_o
T-Tawakal
But im sure u ingat kn kn kn ((:

&&
someone asked me if i want to go for slimming..shud i??i smell something fishy bout it..suddenly out of the blue he wants me to get to noe this person and ask me that question..hmm..Gemok ke saye nih???? O_o
N cn u stop doing that!Stop poisoning my mind cn?? ((: And i dun need any slimming pills or what so ever okay..I like eh no no i love the way i am now..tyvm ((: I think i noe ur motive asking me that question..U nk i join business u tu kn..well mister some one has asked me before and ive rejected that person's offer till haiz disaster..disaster seh..psl bende ni lah kn..haiz..rather not talk abt it..im not easy to be psycho-ed ok..Aniway thanx Mr S for the offer..(not refering to u garfield ((: )

To Ms Frabo ♥:
Hehs..we will be meeting soon my dear..This thurs kei..SENTOSA HERE WE COME!! ((:
We gerls are gonna have have..we MUST!!No sad2..it will spoilt EVERYTHING!!And psl dorg kn..hmm ive no comment psl i tk knl dorg bie..One thing bie u must know..Yana will always be there when im free lah of course xD Guys come and go bie..But friends true friends will stay with you..ILY!! (: haha..kalau bapak i bace nih..comferm!!U noe i noe public dun noe :DD hahahaha

I HATE YOU!!HATE YOU TO THE CORE!!!CB!CB!CB!FUCK YOU LAH!!

When out with them yesterday..it was fun! Went for PAINTBALL!! First timer was excited and i didnt noe what things to bring so yah..went there w/out any extra shirt, pants and toiletries to bath aftr playing..gerek kn..He also nvr tell me to bring..hehs..nvrmind bout dat..still got to play dats good enuf..Playin paintball was fun, exciting n PAINFULL! You shud see their wound seh..ishk2.. aftr playing we all bath and go MAKAN!! Sume lpr!haha.. Ate at Adams corner..I ate Nasi Goreng Kampung.. SEDAP and PEDAS!! Its just suit my taste bud.. (: After eating we all head back home..Trime kasih krane ajak i pergi..i had lotsa fun with u and the rest (:
LOVES <3

When i see him again i feel happy..Noone knows how happy i was..I didnt show it of course..Its like im alive again.Kei thats sound so wrong..But really thats how i feel..Get to spent time with him again..Get to eat with him again..he feeding me sharing his water..Like old times..Will it ever come back??hmm..only he knows..But theres this one part yesterday i dont know why..i dun feel rite about it ): Hmm...

Fiqah, thanx for the post that u wrote for mie..thanx bie..thanx for being there whenever i need u..thanx for all ur effort to cheer me up..i appreciate it..

Kemarin kulihat awan membentuk wajahmu
Desau angin meniupkn namamu
Tubuh ku terpaku
Semalam bulan sabit melengkungkan
senyummu
Tabur bintang serupa kilau auramu
Aku pun sedari ku segera berlari
Cepat pulang cepat kembali jgn pergi lagi
Firasat ku ingin kau untk cepat pulang
Cepat kembali jgn pergi lagi
Akhirnya bagai sungai yang mendamba samudra
Kutahu pasti kemana kan ku bermuara
Semoga ada waktu sayangku
Kupercaya alam pun berbahasa
ada makna dibalik semua pertanda
Firasat ini rasa rindukah ataukah tanda bahaya
Aku tk peduli aku terus berlari
Cepat pulang cepat kembali jgn pergi lagi
Firasat ku ingin kau untk cepat pulang
Cepat kembali jgn pergi lagi
Dan bila telah sayang hujan turun
Menbasahi seolah turun air mata
Da aku sedari engkau lah firasat hati...

That smiled up there, no longer in me..Its gone..And i dun know if it will ever come back..What u said was rite..ure single now u cn do whatever u want and i have no rights to stop you.On the 21st since u dun want me to go, its ok..i'll not request any of day off for next week schedule..And if u also dun want to meet me on Thursday, its fine..I understand no use forcing urself meeting each other if ur heart say u dun want.. ):

Suddenly i felt so lonely in this small room..Noone to talk too, laugh with..The thing being alone and the room flashback about our past come on my mine, about the day when we first met..So quite..harldy talk..Then went to ur grandad's place u started to tease me..u noe i was shy thats why u tease me rite..hahs..went downstairs with ur brothers and cousins..they ask alot of question that u only answered them..i sat there quitely and smiled..When it comes to my b'dae u bought me a watch and a treat at Sandcastle..as we walked we talked, we laugh..aftr eating we sat at the long rock and talk and laugh and suddenly u poped out the question..w/out any hesitation i said yes..I went home with smile on my face..regrading the wacth i lost it yes its lost but it wasnt on purpose..its the most precious thing i got from him and its gone..ive'search everywhere at work for it and yet end up with nth..i feel so sad and angry..but when i told u, u nvr get angry jus disappointed..cooked u pasta and we eat it at the beach..do u remember that?the beautiful flowers u gave me..i was delighted..oh my, tears rolling down as im writing this..keyboard basah..U remember the day we went to changi just the two of us?brought u ur fav peanutbutter sandwich and egg sandwich..u bought snacks and drinks..remember the other day i plan that we wil go there agian but this time we play with the water..remember?hahs..the day it'll nvr come..eventhough it was just a short while..we gone tru alot..to me there lots of memories with u..ive learnt alot when im with u..and now that ure gone im lost..i dun noe what to do..my life now is work work and work..being in relationship is the last thing on my mind now..hmm..

"I was born the day you kissed me, died the day you left me, but lived for the time that you loved me..."

by rite todays is our 6th mnth together..tapi tk kesampaian..haiz..imy yes i do and i cnt denied it..the urge of seeing u is so strong but....idk ):
aniway, have fun tomorrow.. Im sorry i cant go ):

its all over between him and mie..i just find it unfair..he wants me out of his life for good..thanx for everything that u have done..take good care of urself..dun tired urself with work..i have reasons not wanting to contact wit u..i cnt see myself being friends with u..i just cnt..i love u too much..im afraid i cnt move on if i still be contacting u.. ): take care cos i still care.... ♥

When we did something to hurt someone they dont realise it..it seem so hard for us to say sorry..its like the hardest word to say with sincerity from the heart..but we nvr realise that w/out saying the word it can simply drift our relationship apart..That is wat happen now between u and me..n i noe u realise that..becoz of a little thing u make it as if its so massive..its way to long..no mcqes or kol from you..dont make it as if its my fault its bocz of u ur saying make it happen..u say it like really u mean it..so now all is my wrong doings?in the first place if u have not say dat it wont happen my dear..salah i u nmpk..tapi slh u??ade u nmpk??u slh kn org tapi kesalahan u,u sendiri tk tahu..please stop doing this..and its our problem syg dont involve anione in..u noe who is it..so pls2..we settle it our own..we are matured enuf to settle ourself..kiter pernah gini tapi dis is the longest time ktr mcm gini..mommy id the onli person who see the diff in me..not eating well sleepless night day dreaming..she worried abt me..She da lame ask me too stop contacting u tau..she was so angry after knowing u put ur hand on me..we almost fought coz i defended u..she nvr slapped me b4 n u did..dun blame her ibu mane suke tengok anak die yg mcm gini..im sure ur mum too rite wont be easy seeing u like this..but still i wont..u hurt me alot and still i stay on we you..why? bcoz i love you.. i dun understand u at all..sometime i wonder if understand me..?but i guess u'll nvr will..lots of story behaind those smile of mine..i've teared alot for u.. );

And was surfing the net and decided to read her blog..dun asked me why..just randomwant to read..read her past updates..read n u're so much diff with ure with her than ure with me..ure more comfortable with her than me..i cnnt doubt it than she was once the person u love with all ur heart..under circunstances u guys broke up..and i came to ur life..at first i tot u really love me..den 4 mnths of being together u say the hurtfull thing that is still there for ur info..its like a slap on my face when u said that..and the day u go out with her aftr meeting ur guy friend..u meet her w/out telling me..u kept quite like as if u have done nth wrong..till the day i found out myself..hah!!org meski ckp aku tk tahu nk jage matair aku sendiri..sape nye hati tk sakit keluar senyap2..haiz..u had so much of fun ampai tkde rase bersalah gitu kn..and i realise something abt her..she likes to wear long skirt so just out of curiosity,is dat why u want me to wear long skirt too?u want me to be like her?bby, i thank you for changing me to be a better person..but i nvr be like her syg..accept me for who i am..